I prefer quiet
Listening to my breath
My thoughts be still
They become a wedge
Between now and my will
All the unworthiness
Coming to the surface
Tying my loose ends
Pain is the cost, and it’s worth it
Finding out the why
And the how
Setting it free
Peace is my now
I want the higher vibe
The peace and the joy
To help my tribe
And help others join
Peace, love, happiness
And joy
Our weapons to deploy
I am over here
Vibrating high
Forgiving the unforgivable
Leaving it all behind
Putting my best foot forward
Living happily and loving life
No more complaining
Or attracting more strife
I love creating
With a vibration of love
Of attracting the best kind of people
Divine relationships, in thereof.
I am done holding back
That which sets me apart
It is what makes my life interesting
Creating my fresh start
Stepping into
What’s meant for me
Finally seeing
Who I’m meant to be
The longer I live
The more I realize
That we are all connected
And that should prioritize
Who gets to be in your energy
The ones that circle back and share joy
Are a part of your success
Some will want to keep you
Your moving on causes distress
They will either get on the healing track
And move on with you
And not hold you back
That isn’t you, and you wouldn’t be true
To who you are
And who you are meant to become
Change never stops
Learning is never done
If you just stop as you are now
You will become stagnant
Not knowing how
Only to be moody and rant
I prefer real
I prefer authentic
I prefer my company
To have their own good vibes
Peace and Love
On my second day of flu-like symptoms. I have to get back to work, I have art to make and people to help. Yet….here I still am in bed. With the chills sharing crackers with my dog. Who hasn’t left my side. He isn’t an intrusive dog. He loves affection but doesn’t like to snuggle-nap. If you touch him unwarranted, he is out like a shot. He is finicky about his affection. He is a lover. Definitely on his own terms though.
I am all pathetic and angry, and he lays down and puts his paw on me. My whole thought process changed. Asa is always showing me a better way.
Momma just loves him boy!
Some battles are fought within
Unseen to the naked eye
Feelings run amok, most of them grim
Sadness, worry, love: therein they lie
What can start an “episode”?
Oh, another lesson in the “macob”
It can start, by not feeling well
Of peace, my mind gets robbed
Being sick, and the mind just dwells
Pain, and disability can be hard to explain
So before one slaps a label on it
Dig a little deeper, and don’t place blame
All emotions are not processed the same All people are not what they proclaim
I try to search for what I feel grateful upon opening my eyes. Not getting dragged into the past. It's history.
To stay in the present moment, I pick out basic things that I can appreciate. My eyesight, the warm blankets, my husband’s sleeping form. It helps to pick out the current things we are grateful for. It sets the pace for the day. Throughout the day, revisit the good things that are happening. It is easy to feel the discomfort of what isn’t going well. Stop. Think of what makes you fortunate and breathe life into it. Then, go back and tackle the discomfort.
Our problems seem huge when we aren’t in a state of gratitude. The universe will keep on sending the same to us, that our vibration sends out. Stop. Breathe. Think of the things in life that just fill our hearts with joy. Move into that energy. Everything will be alright. That which is meant for us will not pass us by. Balance! Level out that panic and pick our thoughts wisely. God’s peace ✌️
Peace and Love❤️
Marlys Pearson
Sleepy eyed
And full of woe
I peek out
Of my furrow
I am greeted by
A warm glow
Try as I might
To stay tucked in tight
The birds call
To start out right.
I move around slowly
Blinded by the reflection
Of the sun against the snow
The orb’s detection
Of my needed Intervention
The day may be just what my soul needs
Spirit is on me, I go where it leads
Love and blessings,
Marlys Pearson
I am strong and firmly rooted in this life. So much time was spent wishing and waiting for the perfect time, the perfect place, the perfect situation. Racing through life, trying to get ahead of the game. Never truly experiencing the moment I am in and who I am in it with. This moment is the most important. I slowed my roll. Actually, Universe slowed my roll, with some nerve damage. Then I had to break, to rebuild.
I broke, and what came next was the deepest exploration of self. Sorting through layers of what made me happy, sad, scared, exhilarating, anxious, and why.
It was an awakening. A new sense of self. Not before dark night of the soul, though… which lasted way longer than a night. God let me see far past my 5 senses and beyond eyesight. I connected most all of my feelings, triggers, and emotional blocks to individual events in my life. All of which I swept under the rug and blamed my own behavior for it.
It wasn’t
I faced some things that rebroke my heart and realized I was worth so much more. I was loved, and my spirit is inherently good. I met people who brought me to a new path and one that has me walking closer with God and my angels. I was shown my gifts and my purpose.
I have never looked back . I am on an amazing journey.
In every moment I’m in.
Namaste
I just read all my posts from 2019. I am further along in my recovery, and yet still have some of the same challenges. Grounding, acceptance, and limitation.
It is 2022. We have downsized our whole life. Financially and physically. The kids moved out, and we found a tiny little place to rent, and got rid of all that filled our tri-level 3 bedroom, 3 bathroom home. We survived covid. My LTD dropped me, and I went back to work full time, until I couldn’t. I had to tweak everything I did on my job at Advanced Employment. I couldn’t drive as much and work everyday. I found a new part-time job, doing administrative support for a foster care and adoption agency. Four days a week, 5 hours a pop. It is perfect. I am off on Fridays and am usually spent.
My focus is still being the best version of myself and I am still not exactly sure of my limitations, always. Today is a day of rest. It is no longer a bad day. Just recognizing I need to ground, do my yin yoga/pt, and I have some creative commitments to get done for my part-time hustle, as well as, folks coming for their Reiki sessions tomorrow. Tomorrow is a new beginning for me. I begin studying with a Reiki Master-Teacher. I am excited to be stepping into The Master level and learning to teach and practice intuitively.
Back in 2019 I had begun a search of who I was to be. How I could heal myself spiritually. I felt so broken. It has been a journey! Lots of highs and lows. I love my new life and could not do life any other way. I am a healer, I heal with Reiki energy. I am a conduit for it. I also make Orgonite, which has also become a work in healing for my clients, as well as myself. I partake in craft and metaphysical shows. It is amazing to be a part of something so much bigger than myself.
I still struggle with pain at times. It’s different now…less occurrences. I take care of myself. I say no to alot of things. I protect my energy and stamina, as I like to vibrate at 5D. I meditate, stretch, get out and put myself in a place of beauty. Witness to the healing power of wind; breathe! Connecting with nature, to breath and then to source. I awakened. Met others awakened. Some on a parallel journey to mine. Some of my steadfast friends have supported me all the way. Others fell away. It was a natural shedding of what no longer served me. I am loved where I am at, not where others expect me to be. It fills my whole heart up to the brim. It lights up my soul! There is nothing like the right people in your life! Even more uplifting is learning to love myself and create the life of my dreams, for me and my love.
My Russ. That is a complete statement. Never has anyone, loved and cared for me like him. We had passionate physical love before all this. That is the easy part my friends. When someone physically cares for you, helps you shower, dress, runs the house, manages the kids, and so much more, there is a solid wall of FOREVER, that is realized. This journey has been rough on him too. He never left. He never stopped. Our first dance at our wedding reception was to a song called Never Stop, by safety suits. Russ never stopped. I mean, we married at 47 and 51. Two years later I am disabled. Not exactly fun times.
At this stage, on this day, I am truly…truly blessed. I wake up with a grateful heart. We are happy, and we are a team. He supports me in everything I have wanted to do, and I him. This life is amazing.
I am off to do my yoga/pt. It is a beautiful fall day, and I wish to get out in it before I smudge my work area and create. Thinking about the life you want in a positive way, will result in getting the life you want! Even with life happening all around you. Everything always works out. What is meant for us, will not pass us by.
I long to walk this path
To one of my favorite places
To smell the earth and lake
To find my secret spaces
The waves, they lap
I hunt for rocks of old
As the waves retreat
Before they disappear in the waters fold
An old dock, abandoned beach
Uncleared paths, filled with debris
From storms of the past
And over flowing seas
I hope to get there soon
Maybe before the next moon
Marlys' Musings and other writings 